When One Stage of Life Comes to a Close

As I am just finishing my first year of college at BYU and I am reminiscing about all of the memories I have made over the past nine months. Some of my highest highs and lowest lows have been experienced here at college. I wouldn't be the same without them.

I have met some absolutely amazing people here at college and I am going to try to name all of them. If I miss you I am so sorry. I still love you dearly.

First, my roommates. You guys were the freaking best! From staying up late talking about life, all the way to telling each other riddles and getting the strangest responses. I feel as though I got the best dorm in the building. 

Second, off my FHE sisters that drove me insane as well as making my day, I love you guys and was proud to be your step dad.

Third, everyone in Men’s Chorus. I loved performing with you guys and being in the choir was an amazing experience. Sister Hall is an amazing director with fabulous ideas. If you haven’t downloaded our free album “Set Apart” go now to setapartalbum.com and make it a part of your life.

Fourth, my ward. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! I am so blessed to have been in the 57^th ward my freshman year. I wouldn't have traded it for anything. Y’all are some of my closest friends here at BYU and I will miss you.

Fifth, 2217. I love you guys so much. I don’t think I could have asked for better people to meet my first night. It was a  blessing to know you and I hope that I made a good impression on y’all as well.

Sixth, GleeYU. This performance group was incredible. We sang everything and could do \it as well. Even though we fluctuated in numbers we were awesome! Thanks for giving me the outlet I needed.

I try and try to tell myself, “It’s only two years. Everything will be the same when you come back” but it won’t be the same. The relationships I have made this year will change in so many different ways. Some (I hope all of them) will grow stronger. Some (I desperately pray none) will dwindle and die. That is ok!

Serving in Washington DC will be some of the best times in my life. I am excited to go and share the joy that I get to experience every day. I look forward to spending two years away from my family and friends, so that the people I teach can be with theirs for eternity.

BYU has been an absolute blessing this year. Classes were hard and the trials were almost unbearable, but I made it. Looking back there is only one thing I would change.

I wish I had told everyone I met how much they mean to me. Thank you so much for talking to me, smiling at me, or even just being at BYU. The greatest blessing I received at college was the opportunity to be around you.

I love each and every one of you more than you could ever know. If you need anything, I mean anything, give me a call, shoot me a text, facebook message me, something. I will do all that I can to be there for you.

Thank you all for a wonderful freshman year. I don’t know what I did to deserve y’all. Stay in touch and be safe.

Love,

Grant Fuller

One Bad Night

Well as I've come to realize, this blog may just be a way for me to get things off of my chest, tonight, the fact that people don't care enough. 

To add the drama of that statement I'm even going to go as far as to claim that people don't care enough about other people. As human beings we crave for human interaction. We need to feel loved in some way shape or form, whether it be by your parents, siblings, roommates, or even that random hobo down the street. Now when you find the person or group who fulfills this requirement you find an inexpressible joy. You feel as though everything you've been hoping to accomplish is just a little bit easier and everything around is just a little bit brighter. You see the silver lining faster and you dance in the rain instead of trudge in it. 

That person or group can come to mean the world to you, but when on one bad night they don't fulfill this requirement you feel crushed. Suddenly the dark clouds that were bad before get much much worse, the silver lining all together disappears, the rain turns into hail the size of your fist that pound you until your body can't take it anymore.

STOP FEELING THAT WAY! It's dumb. As in the words of my favorite YouTube child, "Everybody, I know you can believe in yourself. If you believe in yourself, you will know how to ride a bike. If you don't you just keep practicing! You will get the hang of it, I know it!" The only thing you need to change in this quote are the words "ride a bike". Insert whatever you need to do in its place, you can do it. The only way to feel better about life is to get out there and do something about it.

Well this post was a bit melodramatic and maybe a little bit on the depressing side but I felt as if these things needed to be said. My mum always told me, "Things that you feel you must say should be put out there. Otherwise they fester inside of you and you will never feel content."

Nothing Is a Waste Of Time If You Use The Experience Wisely.

When I went off to college at Brigham Young University I had the conceived notion that I would show up and start to experience life to its fullest. Man was I in for a deep surprise. When college started I knew almost no one outside of my dorm. I would sit at home Friday nights wishing I was somewhere, doing something, with someone. I didn't take the initiative. My wait for someone to take the first step was a decision I regret not abandoning earlier. 

Now don't get me wrong, I don't wish I had never made that decision. The lessons learned from that experience were lessons that will stay with me for life. My wish is that everyone coming here, or going to any other institution, won't make that choice. Get out there, have fun! Don't be afraid to go talk to that cute girl you sat next to in Chemistry class. Get up from the couch and meet some new people on your floor and make them your best friends. BE ACTIVE!

I let fear of rejection get to me and destroy all hopes of having a positive experience. To tell you the truth the first semester of college for me was terrible. Granted, I did make a few really great friends, and it did have moments when I loved being there. But, the overall experience was not up to my expectations, and no one else was to blame but me.

So learn from the mistakes of others. Life is too hard to figure out everything on your own.